Guarding My Heart (s)

Even though I often try to hide and blend into the crowd, there are plenty of people I admire. And no matter how much I lie, I HAVE had crushes. I just kind of admire the guys from a distance. Half of the time, I dunno if I really like them...or if it's just their good looks. :D But there have been some I know for sure, who I like(d) their attitude, looks, humor, love, etc...but none have them have ever noticed me. Then again, if one did notice me...I wouldn't know what to do with myself. And if they asked me out...I'd probably run away. Then again I could read their eyes...I could tell if they really liked me. I don't even know how to get a guy's attention. I don't actually want to get it (flirt). I want them to notice me without me doing anything special. But then again...I'm just to afraid. Cheaters? Stealers? Maybe I'm just safer staying away. If anyone has suggestions for me...
Then just to add to it, I have friends who will like any guy they think is hot. Like they'll just go and talk to him and without knowing much about him maybe even date him. I don't understand how they can just sell themselves out like that. I want to help them, talk to them about it, etc... but I don't want to hurt them or to be wrong. And I can't control other people's lives. Ugh. Maybe I should just leave them alone. Its their problem if they'll let anyone have their heart.

Even Sleeping :I want to cry but the tears won't come/There's blood on the ground, I think I know where it's from/But my hands are tied as I watch you die'/Step away son,the worst is past'/ He saidBut I can't see her breath, she's moving on fast/As the shadowy reaper glides through the trees/He's coming, he's coming, he's come to steal her away from me...